You read it right. I quit Mary Jane. It has only been 7 days, but the first week is the hardest, right? (Fuck, I hope so.) I’ve been smoking grass for 20 years. I’ve had a hardcore daily habit for at least 10 years. Bong hits for breakfast; bong hits for lunch; bong hits before bed; that was the routine for a decade. Since I was a high-functioning addict, I managed to graduate university and law school with high honors, and pass the bar on the first try. I was able to hold down professional jobs stoned. Nobody knew or they didn’t care. I’ve driven everywhere stoned. I’ve engaged with parents, professors, bosses, and law enforcement high. During virtually all my interactions with friends and lovers, I’ve been under the influence of our green leafy friend.While universally supportive, the first response most of my friends had when I told them I quit was, “why?” I found this question interesting, since my friends know gawddam well that I’m probably the biggest fucking stoner they know. Isn’t it obvious why? Let’s start with the sharp pain in my ribs that felt even more intense and persistent after a day pulling tubes. The wheeze I developed with a quick intake of breath was certainly cause for concern. Top it off with a tight uncomfortable choking feeling around my throat and thyroid. Physically, my body has been saying “stop” for some time. Well, enough is enough. I’m a grown-ass woman. Beyond the physical ramifications, I don’t want to be enslaved or addicted to anything. Addiction robs you of freedom and self-control. Whether I’d like to admit it or not, many of my decisions were motivated by a desire to serve my addiction. What a waste of time, energy, and money.I ain’t gonna front like it has been easy. This week, I’ve been a really big bitch. My fuse is short. I’m impatient. I’m annoyed. That’s because I’m having to cope with those unpleasant feelings I’ve been avoiding for the past 20 years. Sleeplessness, mental confusion, and lack of appetite haven’t helped my mood. I’m sweat detoxing and stink. It’s really not a good look – except for those 5 lbs I’ve lost just in time for my trip to Grand Cayman.Look, my ex would get really sanctimonious and judgmental every time he quit weed, and then like clockwork three months later he’d be asking me for the bong. I’m not about that hypocritical bullshit. What you do with your body and your life is your business. However, if you are contemplating a change in your life – whether it be smoking, drinking, eating, or whatever your addiction, I encourage you to get a hold of the situation. While difficult, it isn’t as hard as you think. All rationalizations and expensive rehabs aside, for most (who don’t require medical supervision to detox, eehhm alcohol and benzos) it really just boils down to a decision to quit. Quitting requires courage, fortitude, and commitment, but once you do, you’ll not only be free of your addiction, you will know what you are made of for the rest of your life.